That’s the definition I found on Wikipedia, if you ask me to define Love… I’d say it SUCKS! It’s is nothing but a reason to be an Emotional Fool! Smiley face, Sleepless nights, Infinite phone calls and the most important of em all “Changed priorities”. It is indeed a beautiful feeling to be in love and to be loved… n given the choice and opportunity I would wana be there once again. This lil heartaches just make u stronger is wot I believe in. Just a while ago I was right there, experiencing this façade cald love n here I am today wondering where the hell it disappeared! Am wondering if I am indeed too egoistic, arrogant or irrational to make me eligible for the relationship(humse ka bhoooool hui ?)… I probably never gave it a thot that there is a good chance this might not work, coz in my mind.... it was nothing less than perfect! It was all “supposed” to be “FUN” and am supposed to laugh at it now(full on Mogambo khush hua style!!!) I am back to playing my best friend part… n as a friend I am important is wot I am made to believe (I bought that crap! How naïve can a person be?)
It’s not as bad, but then like I said the changed priorities decide to take there revenge just then!I look back on all the things that I missed out on, I missed out on meaningful conversations with my friends n family members coz I was so busy talking to dis person 24\7, on prospective positive relationships that "could have" lasted coz I believed I had dat “Special Someone” .I missed out on so much coz I was too busy thinking of his(our) life, his(our) problems, his career, his(our) family… everything was “His” n In between all this I completely forgot that I had a life of my own to create …. I got nobody to blame here but me n like I said before, I was a Fool(LOVEFOOL)…(how much ever I hate to acknowledge it)but to an extend I wud say all this pretty much sucks coz I feel like a looser sometimes…, but still No regrets is the way it is... or lets say that’s how I wud prefer to keep it...
Life after all this is FINE(Ya Right!)… its not the end of the world really(Ya Right!). Not thinking bout it is easier. Wot happened is sad n heartbreaking…but the idea is to let go n find love again n I strongly believe in it. I finally hv sum “ME” time n time to decide “MY” priorities… Sad song are nice, trust me I never heard dat many old number’s …Mera kuch samaan... is a current favorite… Nostalgia is my new found friend … I realized one thing very recently though… One day I was Crying, Crying coz I thot life was being unfair to me, Crying coz I thot I deserved to be happy, Crying coz I wanted to have things my way, Crying coz I felt alone… I was crying n my dad walked into my room… he walked up to me n said wot was I crying for? He just said to me, Tell me wotever it is , n I’ll do wotever it takes to get it for u !!! How I wanted to tell him everything!!! I wanted him to go out there and kick some serious ass(my daddy strongest kinds!)… I wanted him to go out there n punish ppl for breaking his lil princess’s heart! But I obviously cudnt tell him … But this changed my life forver! Coz I realized wot unconditional love means...I was out there trying so hard to be perfect, be everything people wanted me to be....I was out there looking for love n didn’t realize it was rite there! I was wasting my time on these relationships n these friends who hurt me from time n time again n there I had my parents who were always there for me. To be happy for me, to support me, to gimi all the money I ever needed to shop n hv fun with my friends, to pay my endless cell phone bills, to Love me unconditionally… I decided from then on, if it was anyone who mattered more in my life, it has gotto be my mom n dad! To hell with BF’s! To hell with RELATIONSHIPS! To hell with CRYING!
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give...
